I have been saved for many years - 19 to be exact! I wish that I could claim them all as faithful, dedicated years, but unfortunately they haven't been. Life is full of ups and downs and we tend to place God higher or lower during these times in our lives and that's exactly what I did. When things were good, I didn't thank God and I didn't give him the time that should've been given. When things were bad, I moped, cried, and asked God why. I still didn't thank him and praise him as I should.
In college I drifted away from Christ for a period of time, but regained my momentum for Christ when I met my husband. I began going to church regularly (as I did when I lived with my parents) and got my zeal back for Christ and doing things for Him. Although things are never completely smooth, I find ways to remain faithful and motivated to Him.
During the past few years I have really struggled with depression and anxiety. Although it is generally my lowest emotionally, it becomes my strongest spiritually. You have to learn to depend on God to get you through these times. You have to break down your emotions and seek God's word for help and guidance. To find help, you must know the scriptures. Recently I have been led by God to teach our ladies on Wednesday nights. Our church is smaller in number, but we've had a great CONSISTENT group of ladies to attend. Anyone who knows me should know that public speaking is my number one greatest fear, so I know it's only through God that anything is getting accomplished. I have a strong southern accent, quiet voice, and don't care much for making eye contact. It makes me feel awkward. I'm much better when it comes to writing, but somehow God is making the right words come out when it comes time to speak.
Until now, I've been creating a blog for each set of Bible studies that we've been doing. From this point on, they will all be posted on here. I want them in one place - somewhere easy to find. I hope you find something that is a help to you.
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